you never called! ):
stupid brother.
i don't want to remember today, sigh.
it was just so bad, i'm sorry.
i never thought i would see you sad.
i never wanted anything to turn out bad.
it wasn't even something i expected from you.
abhor me, i think you already do.
intentional was not on my mind.
like a prince, you'd never tell me why.
held your head high, damn you did.
never saw the tear flow past the eye.
i lost myself.
pop princess make me smile.
cause she loves him still-
after all this time.
baby, all i think about is you.
Monday, February 27, 2006
when you feel the dream is over
feel the world is on your shoulders
& you lost the strength to carry on
even though the walls may crumble
and you find you always stumble through
remember never to surrender to the dark
cause if you turn another page
you will see that’s not the way
the story has to end.
& if you need to find a way back
feel your on the wrong track,
i'll give you time.
you'll learn to fly.
tomorrow is a new day
& you'll find your own way
you'll be stronger with each tear that you cry.
today was confusing! i don't like the time i spend with __ anymore. just cause you ain't haveing a good day means you can take it out on others. i've been tolerant enough, you just don't realise. we're all not friends with your friends. she acts like a dumb asshole, sigh. emath was tough, i don't think i can make it above a C. elit was alright, but my handwritting became like some piece of shit. i don't feel like doing anything anymore. i've sorta given up... a's mad at b. b told c & i stuff. we told each other. c told b. & now i'm in the dark about everything. d's really upset. & there's also e & f to comfort. i'm just so confused. & g had to irritate me this morning. h is another one of those idiots.
cause she is loving him still, after all this time...
Sunday, February 26, 2006
it's not just the emotional pain.
there's the mental torture.
she's just a kid, yearing for friendship
giva the girl a break
teach her to stand on her feet
instead of draging her down.
things are so different now your gone
i thought it would be easy-
seems like i was wrong.
your not too good for me
teach something other than malevolence
Saturday, February 25, 2006
i know sometime's it doesn't make sense.
it's something we have no control over & that's what destiny is.
it may seem a lil crazy pretty baby, but everythings gonna be alright.
cause all i ever wanted to do was to make you proud.
my hamster was sick since thursday. he had sore eyes! but he's so cute. the white coloured male dwarf. he has a brother, who's a sapphire winter white. but his brother didn't get sore eyes. i feel like calling them hayden & sean okay. i don't know why. but i don't know to call which one what. haha, & i have like two more females. & what should i call them? i don't know. so i just make funny noises & they'll come out. they're oh-so-cute. (: now the sick one is much much better. but he's so disorientated & fluffy! oh- HAHA. he's just cute.
pretttaaayyyyeeeeeee.
like a rose-a1 (: i miss them so badly.
And as I look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from God above
For me to love
To hold and idolise
And as I hold your body near
I see this month through to a year
And then forever on
'Til life is gone
I'll keep your loving near
And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load
You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You gave me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed on earth
Just like a rose
And when I feel like hope is gone
You give me strength to carry on
Each time I look at you
There's something new
To keep our loving strong
I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words I long to hear
How you'll always be
Here next to me
To wipe away my tears
And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do is follow you
To lighten off my load
And though the seasons change
Our love remains the same
Just like a rose
You face the thunder
When the sunshine turns to rain
You open doors I close
In a world where anything goes
You gave me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose
i'm addicted to i'll take my chances with you. & pop princess. (: the click five songs ain't bad. but they sound pretty similiar. haha, it's nice. just- nice.
i've got a stomache. damn.
baby i'll take my chances with you.
you know it's true.
Friday, February 24, 2006
i can't stand it anymore man, yes. i still care about you. RAHH! this is stupid. i read monster's blog. & i realised how mean i was towards ky. like, man, that guy was the best, ever. THE BEST. it's sad la, seeing him with someone else. but yeah, life has to go on.
I KNOW SOMEONE ELSE IN SA!! (: yay, yay, YAY!
today was terrific, the second part. the first few periods were scoldings, i just havent ben paying much attention in classes today, after what i found out yesterday. it's just takes time i guess. later after recess was the council investure. i sat with des & shah. aly was next to shah. it was so fun. because during recess i found out that, someone & something. haha, IT WAS SHOCKINGLY FUN. shocking, fun! (: then later we were all disturbing shahilia, that she couldn't make friends with ufo, it was so FUNNY. then later we were talking nonsense about stuff. we actually SANG when the school song & ij song went on, memories! (: we threw shahilia's belt to the back, & it hit some poor girl! HAHA, all des's fault. the things, so sweet. then we went up to poon's class. arranged the desks & school was dismissed. i had no where to go for two hours, so i went for DENTAL. cabbed there with sam, rachel & angielina. i had to sit infront! hmph. but it was pretty alright, then when we were there, i went to my operator, & it was the same lady as last year! she's nice to talk to, i was laughing at her & her friends. they are so nonsensy. you know, every year that i go there, a1 is always playing. SO COOL RIGHT? hahaha. i <3 a1. then later i went to tuition. it was crazy. i drew poop, twinny drew monkey! so it was monkeypoop! (: & me, clarissa & charissa wrote on the paper. what hand we wrote in. HAHA, nonsense right? i'm gonna put that as my friendster picture or something. then later i went off with pan. she was complaining about EVERYTHING la! she owes me two songs. beep & she was everything. shahilia is supposed to send me baby goodbye! i've got all the click five songs now! YAY.
some stupid shit guy got into rj, DAMN YOU!
& he questioned my jealousy. like wtf.
crazy asshole, stop being a smart ass.
i better become as smart as you okay! I'M USING YOUR BOOK.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
i sit alone & i cry, praying someday i'll have you back to love. i don't know why your so special. it was this moth, last year that felt so special. it was the things you would say, the words were meaningful, you spoke of something other than infatuation. i knew you didn't fell the way i did, but it never stopped me.
now that we're worlds apart, things are failing. nothing has caught up with time for me, but you have moved on, the day everything crashed down for me. would you please tell me why, one last time? i'm sorry for the way i've acted. everything i put you through, the late nights. irritating messages while you were studying.
and this is only the start of the list. i can't imagine how tough it must have been. now your in jc, it's been a long year, but you've made it through it all. i hate it when you would never replied, i wanted to cry. i wisha could run away.
now i ask myself, i wonder why.
have you wondered why?
do you love me still-
you asked the question, but the answer lies in you.
yeah, i'd thank god for finding you.
boy, noone has made me feel this high.
i wish you all the best with her (:
& you better reply when i talk to you!!
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
i like that chinese song.
i have no idea what it means though, HAHA!
it just sounds nice, why?
because the part of it in the show is DAMN FUNNY.
i couldn't stop laughing.
i hope i can pass it off tomorrow,
i won't wanna get into trouble man.
i'm already so nervous :/
gansters?
because we don't give a damn.
make my mistakes, let you down.
i had fun today, i shall not tell you what happened okay! leter someone read, then get JEALOUS. tsk! hahaha, kidding. (:
WAHLAO, STILL CAN SAY!
i know EVERYTHING you said okay! (:
I JUST SHAN'T SAY.
when choongyee cries, i laugh.
that's wierd.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
i can't believe what just happened, i can't believe what i did.
i don't think you were supposed to know i knew, but what's been said & done.
i can't change anything.
monster, please don't go after her.
when you told me that you loved me, were those just words?
i've changed my song to photo, i hope you all like it, it was my blog song at a point of time. now it's back again.
today was fine. i think i've changed my mind over certian things, i cannot believe what you told me. it's astonishing. at least i see your true colours now (: marcella loves me man. i must post this. it's even there on her msn nickname!! tsk, i'm HONOURED (:
partnerd had to leave early for her match! ): RAHH! this means she missed two lessons of lit. that means i sat ALONE for two lessons of lit. & now i have to lend her my book again. so she can copy the notes! stop playing softball, even pan doesn't go man.
cca was more interesting than usual, the sec ones were there. ANUSHA was supposed to be there too! how cool right (: HAHAHA, i'm not mean.
now i've got to do my homework
& then i'll do math practise sums.
:/ then i'll STUDY.
if i can- i will have to, somehow.
i don't want to be a last minute person anymore!!
i can make it, if i try.
she's right. i do miss you.
Sunday, February 19, 2006
omg omg omg. i'm so glad i talked to you (:
but then again, i'll regret it tomorrow, but i'll still happy.
HAHAHA. i'm a happy girl- for now. FOR NOW :D
i wonder what tomorrow will be like, after all- it's only what. ONE DAY AWAY? more like two hours away. i'm in a great mood now. yay yay yay! tralalas, i'm still trying to get to you? but i've some how given up. i feel dumb, i'm smiling to myself at the computer. HAHAHA. uncles should stop bullying little girls for sweets man! RIGHT RIGHT. haha, stupid uncle.
just wanna tell you so you know
here i go, screm my lungs out
trying to get to you, your my only one.
i let go, there's just noone
that get's me like you do.
you are my only- my only one (:
i didn't know how she felt, by the time i found out, it was years too late. i took everything for granted. then i'm guilty. ):
i don't like sundays anymore. there's nothing to look forward to. melanie wong joined us today- i hope she'll have fun. she's like only talking to feryip. let's see, i owe you your SWEETS and you owe me a movie! (: whee, i'm gonna have fun. i want to watch x-men3. now we'll just have to set a date, it's only coming out like march? i don't know if i'll be in singapore though :/
it's not the first time. it's the hundreth thousand!
& everytime you look at me,
i have to tell myself to breathe.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
i didn't go for the acjc, i went TUITION instead. who cares, i wonder who went... i know rena went, cause twin told me. i went to tuition with pan today.
oh & some sji guy looks like ME. he must be DAMN pretty. haha! (source from twin).
I FOUND OUT THAT PAN DIDN'T KNOW THAT -1 DIVIDED BY -1 EQUALED TO 1. HAHAHAHA. it was so funny! (: it's like no matter what we explained to her- she STILL didn't get it. haha! her cousin left with her, petrina, not howie. then i went home ALONE manzxzz.
i didn't find you LONG LOST SISTER at the funfair- sorry! :/
Friday, February 17, 2006
is there anyway that i could stay in your arms. i can't stand they way i've been acting towards certain people. i'm just been a jerk, again. like what i said this morning & on the train. i didn't mean it, i don't mean any of it, i just can't stop myself. i keep thinking that's it's about the way you've been- stranger like you don't care anymore. it pains me, i can't take it. would you tell me one more time? you deserve better, i shouldn't treat you that way. but i can't help myself, falling after each time i walk all over you. i hate picking up the pieces, because i can never fit them into a big part. i don't want to you to get close anymore, i'm not going to take that chance, i'm going to isolate myself from you. we never drifted, i just needed a break, a tough break.
it's study time? what the hell is that.
i hate english lessons, but i'll try.
i'd love to cry, but i can't even-
this is being stupid, asshole.
i'll be true.
it's a beautiful lie, ain't it?
back into your arms
'cause i love you.
feels like i'm standing in a time machine
feels like i'm lost in a clean cloud of heavnly scent.
secret moments shared in the heat of the afternoon.
butterflies fluttering can only mean one thing-
if i could take my heart each time
it isn't love, your just some guy.
there's nothing there, and what i feel
is in my head, it isn't real.
but i can't deny, can't even try.
cause i know inside, butterflies don't lie.
the sec ones are damn irritating, especially this dumb girl, who can roll her eyes, APPLAUSE PLEASE. i asked them to stand up twice, they didn't listen, okay nevermind. i went nearer to them & told them to stand up, PLEASE. & she rolled her eyes, wow, sucha great feat. i felt like telling her if you wanna keep on sitting you can go & sit out in the sun. it's bad enough that the teachers take sides, and mrsng is not in school. there's no teacher that really cares about isabel anymore. it doesn't mean we shouldn't give a damn, we still have something.
school was alright SCHOOL was alright, not funsplash. what kind of splash is fun when nothing is fair? for the past four years ISABEL has been sitting in the MIDDLE, and this year? this is hypocritic injustic. that lady could even tell us that we shouldn't complain about anything as it will cause ARGUEMENTS. listen, we were not complaining, we were just mearly stating the facts. i wish they had hired REAL judges instead of biased ones, who are PAID. msalicia & msmak came back this year, the twins can't come back, they're BANNED. didn't i already tell you the teachers are screwed? they do stupid things. there're many reasons why ignatius are sitting in isabel's place. because isabel doesn't have any good swimmers left. because the people in isabel aren't as SPORTY as the people in ignatus, which are in great favour of the teacher in charge. he LOVES sports people. he wants to close down non-sports ccas. WOW, how idiotic (: oh & because IGNATUS are winning now, haha. next year isabel will only have one GOLD-MEDAL swimmer from the current batch, like wtf? all the good swimmers are in catherine, that's why they're closer to the middle now. it's all the same every time. joseph will always be at the side. there're some who've sworn to win track. i'm gonna try my best, but i'm not promising. marie has potential, but they haven't unleashed it yet. i wonder who will be neat year's captain.
today i went to the FS with desiree, shahilia & adela. we ate at tiong, on the mrt journey, nictay joined us. it was a blast (: then we reached there, isabel was dead, so i was wtf. later me, chirng shirng & anissa went to make people cheer standing infront, with my face painted with green lines. HAHA, it was funny. later went home.
please don't ask why.
i know you doubt me- still
& it really hurts
Thursday, February 16, 2006
i'm sorry for the way i've been, i'm acting like i don't care. i can't even be bothered anymore. i don't fit in like i used to, i don't like the change, i want things to be the same. i don't even talk to you during recess, i almost give up, but there's something left in me, still.
i'll try my best- but i can't promise anything.
i want to be your wonderwall.
but it's hard to say when you don't tell.
i've been failing, shit. i failed emath, ss, phy & chi. chinese was for the test thing, the compos i got Bs & Cs. She gave me 62 out of 100. i'm surprised, what does she see that i don't? today we had some shit math quiz, i don't think i did or will do well. gah, i don't like emath, i will be allergic to math. chem is actually INTERESTING, i've never in my entire life, thought i would actually say that. biology is quite alright, but it's getting boring now, i'm still sleepy during phy. today mrtan showed us the video of him skydiving & he muted some part, tsk! it was hilarious (: i want to watch it again, i like the video, it makes me laugh. english is horrible, i hate english now. literature is alright, i think shankar is alright now. after she facilitated my class for the chemical leak. we all died before we even got into the classroom okay! HAHA. in class we were all so, disorganised, some couldn't care less. but it was fun, i was helping sam with the sticking up of the trash bags first, then later i cut scotchtapes with sophia. then when we moved everything back, i carried my bag & partnerd's bag. ohmygod, IT WAS HEAVY. how can a small little eight year old nerd carry that? it's impossible! geog is cool, i wonder who my relief teacher will be when msseah/mrslok goes on leave for her PREGNANCY! :D boy or girl? (:
you'd know in due time, how i feel
it's not love, lust or infatuation.
it's tentation, you would never be mine
my one & only, ever truly.
i missed last year so, badly i did.
i took my soul & tore it apart.
swore i wouldn't, i haven't.
but noone's gonna treat me like you do
that's what i'll never be, yours truly.
you may not think that i care for you
but you know down inside that i really do
because we're living in a world of fools
we belong to you & me.
Monday, February 13, 2006
seemed to me the song of the stars
every galaxy dancing & loving & loving again.
so i lay my head back down
& i lift my hands & pray
to be only yours i pray.
to be only yours, i know now your my only hope.
at the top of my lungs,
i've giving it all that i have.
it's seven more. then one year.
i can't believe it's been so long,
i can still feel that tingling sensation.
boy, why does it last so long?
mrtan forgot all about the hand writing incident! :D
which means, i got away? haha, cool.
i always feel sleepy during phy.
today my MOM called me twice during phy.
& it wasn't even my last period -.-, damn you.
& i got damn pissed after school, thanks ar.
i wanted to something something. and punch the wall.
i got damn fed up with how everything had been,
i wish i hadn't though, i shouldn't have done that ):
but what's said & done- i can't take back.
that's what i get for thinking too much, regret.
i'd give my life, for yesterday. :/
someone pretty pretty PLEASE save me ):
i don't like this year, not at all.
i really miss IOP, i can't take it.
& i refuse to come to a comprimise.
only if IOP were here, i wouldn't be this sad ):
so how tomorrow?
rock & death metal- screamed their way through her ears and into her head.
i give up, i just give up.
i hate promises, they break easily. somehow.
i hate today, alot.
i hope you don't let me down tomorrow.
i'm sorry for the way i've been.
please, your free to tear me down, i'm waiting for someone to make me realise i'm not alone.
i'll try to pick up the pieces
Sunday, February 12, 2006
i couldn't help her, how she felt that way. she felt it everyday. ):
i feel so bad now, i really do.
answer me. ):
i'm sad, because you made me sad.
i wish you two the best of luck!
when i first got to ngee ann outside, it was already damn packed. i was like shit, i'm late. so i ran across the road with some other people. but i wasn't late. & i didn't know where anyone was. so yeah, i ws standing there. then i saw our school was like right infront. i messaged charissa. she was at the right side, so i went there. rena, resa, nicole, atheena, marissa, shahilia, ashley were all there. plus alot more people. so yeah, i stayed there. then later i went to meet charissa after watching our school perform. i think this dance was better as in coordination & stuff. but the other dance was more appealing. yeah, so i went back to the front. then jessica came out. we talked & got a drink. then she went back in. then i couldn't find anyone again. HAHA! then i found char & mer. but yeah, they were watching like REALLY watching. so i talked to natasha. then later campus superstar people came. i was like ?! haha. i only knew GERALDINE, why? because everyone kept talking about her. esp charlene teo. natasha yeo also another one. then i was standing infront. then she suddenly appeared infront of me. so i screamed on the phone to sha. & she was screaming too! HAHA. then gerard, andy & camillus appeared. camillus recognized rena. so popular aye, tsk! haha. then later i was walking to the back, then i saw michael thang. he went to meet them. our school LOST. hahaha. to got into the finals (:
they're all biased! ;D
i'll take a picture,
for you to remember who we used to be.
i wished i still had you to talk to.
i think i'm going for the dance thing later.
sorry to those whom i took damn long to reply on msn. HEHH!
it's around two. that's what jessica said, & she's in it. so yeah.
i'm supporting ijtp. i'm sorry.
i'll lift my hands & pray.
Saturday, February 11, 2006
nothing lasts forever,
everything else does.
don't forget about me.
perhaps you already have, i just thought you were the one. maybe i thought wrong? either way i would still bother. even though i've moved on.
yeah, i've finally decided to move on.
it's been almost one year,
& i still can't say i don't miss you.
because, sincerely, i do.
cool, howie's got a girl. HAHAHA.
i JUST noticed.
i love the jesus of surburbia video (:
yesterday i was being serious.
& sha said i was SCARY? hahaha.
i've just got a damn dao face?
that's when i don't smile, other than that, it's okay.
can't i not smile? crazy people!
i think the social defence talk was damn funny.
i'm like the 1.4% of singapore. HAHA.
everyone around me is like 77% or 14%?!
i'm so- ALONE! & that story.
__, imangine you are on a highway.
HAHAHAHA! it's dark. and....
you see this man with tattoos on him.
he looks like a gangster, he is waving a spanner at you.
will you stop to help him? HAHAHA.
what nonsense? i think that was stupid.
later i had nothing to do, no one to go with?
so yeah, went to town with atheena.
there was NO ONE in town.
as in from our school la, wierd.
usually our school people are forever in town.
everytime i go there i always bump into someone.
then later i went for tuition.
charissa came at seven. i was there at five.
I STAYED UNTIL NINE, four hours.
i think i'm brain dead (: rajoo is nice.
she got horlicks & a tin of butter cookies for me!
:D SO SWEET RIGHT?
we'll eat the cookies next time we come.
which is at four, this coming friday!! (:
i so cannot wait ;D
Thursday, February 09, 2006
when you wake, you'll look around. the emptyness, the silence. they speak to you, unknowningly you don't listen. you refuse to believe what they say, all this time you wouldn't listen. they won't give up on you. you say you'll find a way around it. you walk away, yet another time.
perhaps woman, you should try. someday you learn it's an art to cry. stop and listen, just one time. when that tear rolls down your face, it's alright.
today is a smacky day. i was leaning over the science lab table doing the project & there comes gen, who whacks my butt or something. and my ____ hits the table, hard. OH MY GOODNESS. it hurt! but it was alright. mswong didn't come today so we had to do the project thing. & my grouop didn't finish. my group is like, yawn. i ate five packets of wangwang in emath today. Mmms. (: mr poon saw but- WHO CARES. it's allowed. haha. i pay attention, so i get to eat. haha. i still don't know what to get for valentine's day. maybe this year i just won't give anything? sigh. people STILL owe me my christmas present.
ideas, anyone? i wish that i was still in last year, i read a blog & it was talking about that person's first day of sec two. i miss being in sec two. ): i wish this year's efl can be spent with the people i did last year. i liked efl last year, every second of it. even the scoldings? (: i made it through, but never the less.
I AM EXTROVERTED, something, THINKING & JUDGEMENTAL.
after that test thingy, my face was in a frown all the way home. i think too much.
stop, turn
take a look around.
i know you've got a problem, just tell me how come. perhaps not why, but just how come. i know i wouldn't tell you why. i won't ask for much, i promise.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
i'm damn pissed.
___! i don't like this.
): can you come online- your NOT online.
damn you. i need someone to ramble to? the person i was talking to just LEFT ME ALONE? :/ fuck zxc. now i know why they talk about you. it's all freaking bullshit. i'm not falling for that, asshole.
today was CRAZY! everyday is crazy.
i piggybacked sarahtay! now my back hurts? haha. she can carry me! :D partnerd can't carry her though. HAHA. she fell down okay! we had chinese in zhangjing's classroom! MEMORIES, oh so sweet (: i like the mentos sourmix or powermix... SOMETHING LIKE THAT. haha, i like the green one. it's the sourest. the yellow one- the taste sucks. the purple one is SWEET la. during math, mrpoon suddenly told us HE DIDN'T MIND US EATING IN CLASS, ONLY IF WE WOULD PICK UP OUR SWEET WRAPPERS & STUFF. i went O_O haha. he & zhangjing are very very NICE. (: oh & the whole class FAILED EMATH.
i'll pray for you to be alright.
i can't be there, at all-
i wish everything went well.
i'll love you, cousin <3
lil one, is everything okay?
i've got my troubles too.
it's not a land of negative,
it's the way we see things.
don't forget, i'll always love you.
i'll count the days to year one. ALONE.
i'm glad- i've moved on.
Sunday, February 05, 2006
madison is so ADORABLE. i like kim's blue eyes (: that sec one girl was starring at me, while i was at the busstop with dennis. melanie & michael took the train. jonathan & kemmy, BIKE. today isn't very fun, i don't like sundays anymore.
I´m the son of rage and love
the jesus of suburbia
from the bible of "none of the above"
on a steady diet of sodapop and ritalin
no one ever died for my sins in hell
as far as i can tell
at least the ones i got away with
but there´s nothing wrong with me
this is how i´m supposed to be
in the land of make believe
that don´t believe in me
get my television fix sitting on my crucifix
the living room in my private womb
while mom´s & brad´s are away
to fall in love and fall in debt
to alcohol and cigarettes and mary jane
to keep me insane and doing someone else´s cocaine
at the center of the earth
in the parking lot of the 7-11 where i was taught
the motto was just a lie
it says "home is where your heart is"
but what a shame
´cause everuone´s heart doesn´t beat the same
we´re beating out of time
city of the dead
at the end of another lost highway
signs misleading to nowhere
city of the damned
lost children with dirty faces today
no one really seems to care
i read the graffiti in the bathroom stall
like the holly scriptures in a shopping mall
and so it seemed to confess
it didn´t say much
but it only confirm that
the center of the earth is the end of the world
and i could really careless
I don´t care if you don´t
i don´t care if you don´t
i don´t care if you don´t care
Everyone is so full of shit
born and raised by hypocrates
hearts recycled but never saved
from the cradle to the grave
we are the kids of war and peace
from anaheim to the middle east
we are the stories and disciples of
the jesus of suburbia!
Land of make believe
and it don´t believe in me and
i don´t care
Dearly beloved, are you listening?
i can´t remember the words you were saying
are we demented?
or am i disturbed?
the space that´s inbetween insane and insecure
oh therapy, can you please fill the void?
am i retarded?
or am i just overjoyed?
nobody´s perfect and i stand accused
for lack of a better word and that´s my best excuse
to live and not to breathe
is to die in tragedy
to run, to run away to find what to believe
and i leave behind this hurricane of fucking lies
i lost my faith to this, this town that don´t exist
so i run, i run away
to the light of masochists
and i leave behind this hurricane of fucking lies
and i walked this line a million and one fucking times
but not this time
i don´t feel any shame, i won´t apologize
when there ain´t nowhere you can go
running away from pain when you´ve been victimized
tales from another broken home
Thursday, February 02, 2006
for the past few days, school has been great. :D my class is full of crazy people. i'm not a nerd la, if you call me a nerd, i will get damn upset if i don't get FULL marks. haha. i will only be happy with results if i get full marks? or else i won't care. i was told to set higher expectations for my marks, because i wrote down 12, & the paper was upon 20. but i got like 14? i wnt at least a 15 out of twenty :/
walking up the stairs with sarah & sha is damn fun! :D we'll do the choochootrain thing. the one we played in primairy school. (: & we'll take so long to reach the top. we'll be breathless & laughing our asses off when we reach the top(poon's class). sarah tay is a NERD. shahilia is a failure nerd? haha. sha is still TRYING to become a full-time nerd. sam is.... HAHAHA! today sam & i were in the toliet, so i took out my phone, i wanted to take a picture. but i kept laughing. & i couldn't like take properly? HAHA, so i asked her to take. then everyone who came in also took with us? sarah, charlene & jiali. sha was in the toliet & justine walked in while we were taking? haha.
oh & during today's recess, shahilia kept calling resa the princess & resa said we were her palace maids? haha, so i was like YOUR MY DAUGHTER. hahaha. then i went around clinging on to people. so this is what we are. shahilia is nictay's husband, who is having AFFAIRS with resa, ashley & trying to jio marcella. HAHAHA. & i'm resa's father, who refuses to let shahilia touch my daughter, or else i'll have HIS head. & then there's james(fiona) who em... does NOTHING? haha, what nonsense right? & rena refuses to let me cling onto her! RAHH. mean piece of shitlet. HAHA.
WE'RE ALL GAY!
oh & sha is called natasha_ ! & natashaddup. (: